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God is good; scary good. And so it is with Christ; good Christ but scary Christ. It’s an odd juxtaposition but I find it in the story Steve shared of the disciples, the sea, the wind and Christ in control. I know it well. Christ and the disciples are headed across the Sea of Galilee when a squall rises up and threatens to drown them. They wake Jesus. He rebukes the wind, the water and the disciples themselves for their lack of faith. Heard that. Got that. Then I read on.
With wind and sea subdued, Luke records that the disciples went right back to being afraid (Luke 8:25) only now of Jesus Himself instead of the natural elements around them. One fear has been supplanted by another. Hmm... I check Mark 4:41; same account, same result; scary storm and scary Jesus. This time when the disciples find Jesus, He's asleep unfazed by the storm and they have to wake him up. Didn’t Christ just call them out on their fear? Wasn’t He clearly in control? Shouldn’t they have trusted in Him? Yes and that’s what I now get. To be fair, who wouldn’t have been more than a little unsettled by a man, fully-man, with these kinds of powers? He’s fully God too, we now know, but this was pre-resurrection Jesus. The disciples were ignorant of that fact. If there isn’t a Bible translation with the modern term “freaked out” in it, there should be. These guys were freaked out. I would be too.
And yet we know that by then the disciples were dealing with a predictably miraculous Christ who had already healed the disabled and raised the dead. Weren’t they to feel more confident and less afraid? Didn’t Jesus always have their back? My guess is that recorded or not, there was a constant state this God is of great fear around Jesus. Who was He? What would He do next and to whom? Where were they going? How would it end? Being a disciple of Christ was scary business. I get that. But I think on another level we’re also afraid of the simple notion that He is God and we are not. Where is He taking us? Have we a choice?
I can’t stand being in the passenger seat on an icy road even though I know with full confidence that the driver next to me is more skilled, more experienced and more calm under the conditions. I want control. In life I am hard pressed to share the wheel with God, much less give him the control He already has. It’s irrational but I deny Him His due. My fear drives me to take control, not give it.
Like the disciples we fear lack of control even when, and they didn’t fully know this at the time, God is in charge. Do I believe God is in charge? Absolutely. Am I afraid of it? Sometimes I am. God works in His own time and for His own ends. While I trust God’s will and His goodness, I’ve seen enough in life to know that God offers no assurance of immediate safety or relief. My escape plan is seldom His. I do think this is something Christ perfects in us throughout our walk. We grow our capacity to trust His purposes and yield to His outcomes. The yielding bends back against our pride and our instinct to control circumstances we fear. I battle the storm then desperately shake Him awake when I finally realize that He’s been in control the whole time. What’s battering your boat? Will you wake Him?
written by Rob Ames